A response...

And now my response.

     To my amazingly supportive wife and sons,

     You are ever so right on so many levels, the pace and cattywampus balance that I have been leading our family in has been painful to look back on these past days. Truthfully you have lost out for nearly two years now, when a decision has come down to you vs. ministry, I have to admit the vast majority of such decisions tilted in the favor of ministry. I'm sorry. I thank God for His mercy and grace and allowing me to take a fresh look at life through different eyes. Eyes, that look outside of myself and my preconceived ideas about what "I have to do".

     Boys, for one reason or another the decision that we have made concerning your mother's involvement in ministry has truly shaken me to the bones, and has birthed in me a hunger to readjust scales in which all decisions are weighed, whether they are decisions concerning ministry, work, finances, or even the mundane tasks such as discovering the evening's plans for dinner. Please accept my apologies for time lost, I spent a great deal of it paving the road to hell with those good and virtuous intentions we hear so much about.

     In short, I miss you.

     But still, there is that whole ministry that God has called me to, thing. I'm sure the enemy would love nothing more for my guilty conscious to spur me into an emotional over reaction and force me to step out of such a calling. Well it's quite the opposite. Ministering to the youth of our community is fulfilling the plan God has put together for my life,  and the students that God brings through the doors on a particular night are brought their by divine appointment, of this I'm sure. People, young people, need Jesus, and I'll continue to point them towards Him. Only from this point on from a place of health, and knowing that my family is taken care of. There is freedom to be found in making the right choices. Even when they are hard. My prayer is that you will see this played out in front of you through your mother and I as we continue to seek God's will for our lives, our family, and yes, even our ministry.

Love,

Your husband and father.